YFriday, August 18, 2006
[chorus] Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place [chorus] Crying out loud I'm crying out loud Open your eyes
"Losing Grip" Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone
when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going newhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then i don't care were not going newhere
eeQah was here with you at
YThursday, August 17, 2006
what the heck..
this year when im starting to get serious,the school just sucks..
i mean we rarely had humanities..and our friday is a free day..and teachers just stop coming to our class...either they are not in skewl..or dey are late!!
wtf!!and we the students are trying herd not to gave up tho we kinda gave up in certain stuff..
well,aniwae...to gdfren hu tag my blog..thanx fer the tag..i appreciate ur concern ..=) but plz do not worry as me n him are okae oredy..and i can make my own decision..=)thnx once again..
eeQah was here with you at
YTuesday, August 15, 2006
okok..my one year isnt exactly what i dreamed of for the past months..but he's nice to me..
i was at home sleeping and resting my ass off..
den at night i am like a servant..try to get in contact with him but cant get thru him the whole day..kinda sad actually..i mean..every girl have a dream..a fantasy for their anniversary..every anniversary i didnt get anytyng,..but i alwaez make myself smile by tynking its all worth it if i be patience..hu noes my one year would be a blast..
oh well..i understand..let's just wait for my two years okae?..=D
n yup..im still praying for him..i hope he gets to find the right door that welcomes him..
i really am helping and praying..
eeQah was here with you at
YMonday, August 14, 2006
wooOhOOo~~!!
oNe yEaR MaN!!!
~*~hAPpy onE YEar fREd~*~
~*~happY OnE YEaR EeQa~*~
OKOK..im juz soooOoO excited CoZ Its ONe YeaR...DatS LonG!!! haHAhaHA
BtW,toDAy IS 15 aUgust...
LAlaLA...
sO much i weNt ThRU...
it pAys oFf..
OKok...im CRAzY noW...
ONe YEAr~~~
eeQah was here with you at
YSunday, August 13, 2006
get back with fred..
okok..i noe u guys will go (what the f***!!!)hahaha..
but i dunno..its like sumtyng that i cant let go though i wanna let go..its confusing..u wont understand..i mean coz u are not in love..well..wat is love aniwae...hmmm
aniwae,i wanna say thnx to p.za,wawa n farm for giving me the support.. guess wen u guys read this post u guys sure gonna slap me..its like a cycle...hahaha
aniwae..wanna join the dancefloor..i oredy hav 5 ppl in mind..but still waiting for their answer..hmm..hope dey can make it...
*cross finger*
eeQah was here with you at
YSaturday, August 12, 2006
to:him
Its the first time I ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
Its funny when you think its gonna work out
Til you chose weed over me, you're so lame
I thought you were cool until the point
But up until the point you didnt call me
When you said you would
I finally figured out youre all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story
Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't
Youre too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm asking for?
I thought you'd come around when I ignored you
So I thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning'
Cause I'm not about to look at your face again
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears'
Cause I, I am still here
But everytime I try to make you smile
You'd always grow up feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
Is it too much that I'm asking for?
me:crying
he:__?__
eeQah was here with you at
that's all for us
we didnt make it till 15 august 2006 but still dis months past really meant a lot..
alot of tyngs im gonna miss...actually.the ultimate thing im gonna miss is his family..dat i felt like mine..and the feeling that i get when im with him..when he automatically hug me..
eeQah was here with you at
YFriday, August 11, 2006
listening to:me and my melody by seven sundays
well..guess wat ..he's also listening to dat song..good tyng i mute it wen he called..
okok...i dun wanna put wat probs i have here..but i really am going thru the downs of life now..everytyng seems so wrong..very wrong..and i really cant turn to anyone coz i havta do it on my own..but a little support would be nice..but i dun seem to be getting it..
its sad..wen ur boyfriend dont hav a clue abt wat dey are suppose to do..isnt der any courses for them?... and dat makes me feel like im unimportant to him..which really affect me alot wen he seems to be paying more attention on his other girlfriends while i tried calling him but cant get thru or we are always silent onda phone...yes,first tyme in my life i sound so bored on the phone..i always hav sumtyng to talk to onda phone..dats why ppl love to call me up..like him last tyme..
but i cant juz be talking and him juz keeping quiet..he dun wanna open up..okok..maybe he is the type hu dont share..but why am i here for? im waiting for him to tell me abt his day..abt his feelings..i dun wanna guess abt it anymore..and i wish he wouldnt lie to me..no matter how much the truth hurts..coz i really appreciate ppl hu is honest..i hate lies..i really hate lies..coz i always sense a purpose for sumone to lie..
i dunno...he dun feel me..
dat makes me feel more selfish den ever to desperately seeking attention from him..i just had enuff of it..im very very tired..too tired..and he?..he dun bother..coz he tynks abt his own problems..and not mine.. i always tynk abt him...his problems..his feelings..i noe he's also going thru the downs... but i try to be der too..to help him..but wat bout him?
im sick of crying alone..im sick of juz keeping how i feel juz to myself..coz he just tynks dat im crapping .. kinda make me look like a fool.. actually i do feel like a complete big fool now..after all the words he said to me..
now the song is :heaven knows
oh my..
eeQah was here with you at
